Hey all so I got my rent covered this month but I am still taking commissions to try and make up extra fundage so my mate and I have some money.
About the wedding!!!! We have not officially decided on a day but we have a compromise. Maxx ((My mate)) Want to have it some time in early October to late September but I wanted a Halloween wedding so he and I have agreed that if he doesn't get to have his cub ((daughter)) Yuki for Halloween this year we can have a Halloween wedding. So we kinda have a date but we kinda don't. More details to come on that.
So recently I have been warring with myself over quitting art or continuing it. I haven't always been so torn between doing art. I use to love it. I remember times where as soon as I woke up to the time I went to bed I would be at my table doing art and I loved it. I loved having art streams and spending long hours just doodling random pictures for myself and my friends. But recently it's become more like a chore to me. More like I'm expected to have things done. And I honestly don't know why because I have been offering commissions for over a year and have had maybe 6 or so. I think I am coming to a realization that the art I offer is not as good as a lot of the other artists around me. That the people I strive to be like are always going to be miles ahead of me. My artistic skills are nowhere near the place I want them to be. I have considered going to art school and at first was very excited over it but after this last year I have thought it wasn't a good idea. That all I would be doing was wasting my money and this has detoured me from even considering trying again to go or not.
Honestly I don't know if I am going to continue or not. The only support I seem to be getting from anyone is from my friends Zero, and Jeff and my mate Maxx. And even with that I still don't see myself improving and I still find myself whoring my art around for commissions and not getting anything from it. I appreciate all the help I have gotten from the people around me who have gone out of there way to say something about my art to their friends and I wish I could do more for them but I can't sadly.
I haven't made any choices on it yet but I will soon. If I do decide to qui art I will be deleting all art on my DA and FA as well as my art commission website.